Apologies in advance for how short and random this entry is. As I said when I started this page I was going to update this page every day, and I plan on sticking to that. However, I am sporting a reeking hangover so that’ll likely dent the content of this entry. Once again I am sorry!
My original plan was to come straight home from work last night and have an early night, but sadly such sensible and tender plans were not meant to be. I was convinced (obviously it took ages…) to go out with friends from work. Finished at 10pm, was drunk by 11pm.
This of course has given me a brutal dose of the fear today, and as such I am plagued with guilt over drinking last night, even though I am off today. I feel like I’ve let myself down, that I lost control and that I’ve annoyed people. This paranoia is crippling. Add in a hangover and I’m a walking catastrophe. Dead man walking. Black circles decorate my eyes; my liver is ready to pack its bags and move out. I literally cannot keep down water, food, dignity etc.
If I was a Pokemon my name would be ‘I will not be sick’ as that’s all I can say right now. That said I did have a good time, so that makes it alright? No, maybe not. I really don’t know. My mind is an absolute mess today and I’m currently dreading going out tonight. I need to budget this month as well as there have been a few money issues I’ll need to iron out over the next few weeks.
I also really want to get my flat mate/best friend something great for his birthday, but I am totally short on ideas. Anyway, please don’t judge how terse and dull this entry is. I promise something more riveting tomorrow.