This essay is for anyone who has battled an eating disorder. It's about how easy it is to fall back into that mindset, especially while wrestling with poor mental health. I wrote it a while back during a particularly bad spell of depression, which was soon a prelude to the return of dangerous eating habits. … Continue reading Eating Your Issues
You know when you’re walking along, enjoying the sun, and you see a little bee buzz by before it delicately lands on a flourishing flower and you think, ‘yeah, little buddy. That’s exactly where you’re meant to be!’ Well, that’s how God feels when He sees me crying in the bathroom of Taco La Bamba. … Continue reading HTRE – Part 1: The Collapse of Mental Stability Never Felt so Funny.
When I heard that someone I love was raped, I felt sick. Actually sick – to the point where I wanted to ask my friend to pull over so I could vomit into the rain-soaked street. I saw her beautiful little face crumbled with tears; her body neatly curled up in a protective ball, hidden … Continue reading If They Can’t Say No; They Can’t Say Yes – Know.
The first time I waddled into a gay bar I was immediately thrust out of my comfort zone. At the time my eardrum was punctured, so I said ‘what?’ a lot and my English sounded broken. I wore ill-fitting vests that hung like a potato sack over my body and every guy I encountered looked … Continue reading Straight Women & Gay Bars
During his speech at the Republican National Convention, Donald Trump made a rare overture to the LGBTQ community. ‘As president, I will do everything in my power to protect LGBTQ citizens from the violence and oppression of a hateful foreign ideology,’ Trump said to a room which soon filled with applause. Then he went off … Continue reading Nice rights you got there…
When you’re little, adults are always promising you that the next stage in your life is the place where you’re going to make friendships that’ll last a lifetime. ‘You have to go to school, that’s where you’ll make friends.’ and ‘You can’t stay inside all summer, so go outside and form relationships.’ roll off their … Continue reading Old Friends Sat On a Good Sofa
At the gym today I found myself caught in the morning tide of fellow gym-goers. The locker-room was packed full of sweaty men trying to slink their way back into their work suits; talking casually about the working day ahead and weekend plans. I tend to keep myself-to-myself at the gym; avert my eyes, shrink … Continue reading Locker-Room Talk.
The following are things I’ve said and/or written down on recent nights out. Yet still I drink. Gays can sense other gays. It’s like when you’ve petted another dog and your dog just knows. Let it be noted that sober Topher went out on his own volition and regrets everything. I hate meeting ‘Twitter gays’ … Continue reading Unlikely Things I’ve Said on a Night Out